Due to circumstancing it had to end 3 sessions early but this was the right time to end!
I honestly did not think I would make it through the whole set of counselling.
From past experiences, I never had a good feeling about counselling and believed it wouldn't work. But once again I thought I'd give this counselling ago.
To begin with I found it easy, no big problems and just thought this will be like all the other sessions, nothing will happen and I'll be exactly the same.
When it got the middle of the 5 months, it was horrible. The things that were being brought up in the sessions were blowing up. It became so difficult to deal with the emotions after the sessions, I would tend to spend the next day crying. It would make me question my relationship and wonder if I was better off alone.
But by the end of it all, everything made sense, and the reason the middle was such a struggle was because the counselling was working.
So here I am today, now completed and kind of feeling a better person.
I have learnt that what happened to me was no ok. but it was not my fault.
It's ok to have emotions and feelings.
I can be the person I want to be.
I have trust issues; but that is to be expected.
I feel more confident in myself in knowing who I am and feel a bit brighter about my future.
Obviously I still have no idea what I'm doing with my life, no idea when I'll get rid of the anxiety or control it enough to work. But I have also learnt to take one step at a time.
So to treat myself today. I bought my first Pandora ring.!
This experience has taught me that I can do anything if I put my mind to it!
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