I want to be creative

Hey guys.

I'm afraid this post is a bit of a rant towards myself and my dyspraxia.
I want to be creative.
I see so many people having these amazing creative ideals with art, photography, crafting etc and I'm just here, with the creative ability of a potato.

Since I was in school I have tried to draw. But unless I was tracing the image; it would turn out awful. I don't think I've once drawn something freehand that hasn't made me angry and rip the paper up in rage.
My mum is a crafter, she makes beautiful cards, scrapbook, knitting etc. I tried knitting once, because I wanted to make myself a blanket, I remember this clearly! I got the hang on how to knit, I was getting excited because I thought "YES I CAN DO SOMETHING" I finished the first square, and there it was, a MASSIVE HOLE IN THE MIDDLE. I somehow mucked it up.

Photography. My dad and my boyfriend love photography. I decided to take Alevel photography because well, it sounded more fun then French. And I thought I was doing pretty well with my photography, I mean I wasn't the best compared to my friends, but  I gave it a good shot! Handed in my first assignment. And I got a U. yes. A. U!!!!! like why not just right "lol you tried" over my work!
Personally I think that teacher didn't like me, and the feeling is mutual. I spent six months, and got my photography work up ready for the exam and the exam board gave me a C overall. So I wasn't too bad, but my confidence is not there anymore.

The only creative thing I can do is colour. I have well over 20 adult colouring books, and that is about as far as my creative side goes. Even then I muck up and colour out of the lines.

It's funny really, I can't do any of that. But put pen and paper down in front of me and I'll write you a story.

Brains are funny. Still want to draw though. Silly brain.